I accepted that I could not do this myself - alcohol is too powerful. I had to let go, be brave and ask for help. This is the first time I had ever felt peace. I learned the Serenity Prayer. I use this prayer in all situations, it helps me discern, get clear about what the next right thing is and is not. It began a new relationship with a Higher Power (which I call God). My serenity comes from living my core values, redefined beliefs, and relationship with God. It feeds my freedom!